it's the same old storyline

i am fucking pissed with you. like you tell me "please tag" and i do it. because everybody just understands how bloody annoying it is when someone reads your blog/your intimate feelings/opinions and they just leave without a comment/recognition of like "hey its ok i understand how you feel".
the stupidest and most annoying part is when you're a friend and i tell you almost everything i feel and when i'm feeling down, i make it so very clear on my blog(which you read all the time but dont admit), you dont even comment to say "kaywei, how are you doing"

alright never mind that you dont comment, you fucking dont even bother to call me up or text me. like hello, if you use your home phone you dont have to pay a single fucking cent for your outgoing calls cause the bills not your problem.

hello, i help you alright. i helped you when you needed me. i tried my best with tags/comments/texts/presence when life came crashing down on you. like what the fuck is your attitude to me now?

i mean i completely understand if you're not comfortable with having your name put up on blogs(the comment part). but hello, i take a look around and you're tagging on everybody's tagboard/comment even your OWN.

you hate me much?


the olevel results were released yesterday. and i ran over to you. "____how did you do?" my happiness somehow hung on your happiness too. i was so fucking concerned whether you could get your ideal grade. YOU DID. and i was so happy for you. i was so proud of you. but YOU DIDNT EVEN FUCKING BOTHER TO ASK "WHAT ABOUT YOU? HOW DID YOU DO?"
you really didnt care actually. all the pretence for the past few months and now i can see your true facade.

you didnt actually care that i didnt do as good as i wanted to do, and that i was devastated and heartbroken. you didnt care that my walls were crumbling. i guess you had really really more important friends to care about.

i dont know how i'm going to continue talking to you again. i want to call you, i want to pick my phone and dial those familiar numbers and while my afternoon away talking to you about my options. but i guess you have the others from your class to talk to. after all, we're a different league now right?


i'm not referring to just one girl. its two. you two, broke my heart so bad.

text me, comment just make some pathetic effort to just type a little but more on ONE MORE blog. ask me how i'm doing. i forgive so easily. i still love you two. but time and again, it feels like you dont love me as much. like you dont care.

you got the time to tag on XXX's blog about random things, but you FUCKING GOT NO SENSE OR EYES OR BRAIN TO SEE THAT I AM JUST AS SENSITIVE AS YOU ABOUT THESE THINGS AND THAT I WOULD LOVE TO SEE YOUR COMMENT.

haha, the next time you tell me "kaywei, tag can?" (because your tagboards kinda dead) or when you say "i scared no one tags and i'll look like a loser" and that sorta stuff that i feel exactly the same way about, i'll tell you "THEN WOULD YOU DO THE SAME FOR ME WHEN I'M DOWN"???????????????????????????????

what the fuck.